"Strive to enter through the narrow gate, for many, I say to you, will seek to enter and will not be able.
1 Cor 9:25
And everyone who competes for the prize is temperate in all things. Now they do it to obtain a perishable crown, but we for an imperishable crown.
You have not yet resisted to bloodshed, striving against sin.
Therefore submit to God. Resist the devil and he will flee from you.